Mistakes Happen
Written 5/3/02
Mistakes Happen,
people react in ways we don't expect.
I didn't mean to make her feel uncomfortable,
she thought I was asking her out again.
That was unexpected.
I only wanted to learn from my mistakes,
and in the process made more.
See, I did ask her out (as friends),
and she nicely turned me down.
Being too busy was the reason.
I could accept that,
but it left me wondering.
If I hadn't waited so long,
and asked when she wasn't busy,
perhaps she might have said yes.
I didn't know, but it wouldn't hurt to ask, right?
Wrong.
When I tried to ask, she thought I was asking her out again,
and told me I was making her uncomfortable.
That was unexpected.
I froze up, didn't know what to say.
I reached out to place a hand on her arm,
something I do instinctually to comfort.
She pulled back,
I reeled.
Mistakes happen.
I should have made my intentions clear,
but I didn't.
I did tell her I would never mention it again,
but now I'm feeling like I wronged her.
I could try to make it up to her,
but I'm sure that wouldn't go well either.
So I'm left with regret,
and I believe I failed at something else too.
I said to her at first I didn't want to seem weird.
Obviously she must think that,
and worse, I fear.
Mistakes happen.
That I can accept,
but I can't bear it when things remain uncorrected,
and my mistakes cause someone hurt.