Releasing the Pain
Written 7/21/99
The pain I feel inside, runs deep,
and I can't handle it anymore, I can't let it keep.
But what can I do, how can I let it out,
I don't want to bother anyone, so I can't shout.
I can't get emotional, and cry,
people'd just laugh, I'd rather die.
I'd like to smash something, and break it,
but then my pain wouldn't be a secret.
So what can I do, where can I go,
oh wait, I know.
I have a little friend, he likes to help,
though sometimes he makes me yelp.
But he is great, I don't need to talk,
or go anywhere, no need to walk.
He doesn't want anything, he has no price,
all that's needed, is for me to slice.
I hold him close, pressing deep,
it doesn't hurt much, and soon I'll see the pain begin to seep.
It starts slow, and for a moment the pain may increase,
but it's just the pain beginning to release.
At first it's a red spot, but soon it grows,
and as the pain is released, the red flows.
I watch it, feeling better as it drips to the floor,
not stopping, until the pain is no more.
When I'm finished, my suffering is decreased,
because the pain has finally been released.