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Blah I feel tired right now. Got enough sleep last night, but maybe that's how the body reacts when you change around what you eat?

So I went out this afternoon, got some pans for cooking with, and some food. Wheeee! That was nice, threw some ground up turkey, onions, and red peppers into a frying pan and cooked that up. Yeah, may not sound that great, but compared to what I had been eating the past two days, it was yummy. Did need some salt. Real nice to have an actual meal though!

Woke up with a headache again today, not too bad right now. I think I need AC in my room or something, because I just get to hot while sleeping.

Oh well, later.

Posted by Me on 6/25/2004 09:05:15 PM | Comments?

Me annoyed. I wanted to get up earlier, well 10 am.. which is early for me, and go out shopping. But didn't. My alarm was set and all, and it's across the room, so I need to get up and turn it off. Really sad that I can get up, walk across my room, then turn it off.. without really waking up. Even sadder, I had awoken around 8:45ish.. I think, checked the clock, and went back to sleep.

Speaking of sleeping, had an interesting dream last night, sorta. It involved a friend, a female friend! In the dream she lived near by, but in reality she lives fairly far, like a state away. Maybe a 6 hour drive? Guessing. Anyway, there were some different parts to the dream, the one that I remember best, was the part where we played show and tell. I think we were in her basement. She umm.. wanted to see something of mine, so I showed her. Think I ended up showing her it twice. She was impressed (Hey, it's my dream!). I then asked to see a bit, since I showed her. She briefly, showed a little by slightly pulling down her shorts, not far though. Maybe seeing, umm.. 1/4th or less of what would be found there. She was just really concerned with me seeing her black belt. Not a karate black belt, just a belt that was black that she was wearing. So instead she let me see her chest. I complimented them, and didn't touch, because there's no touching in show and tell. Hmm.. nothing else happened, cuz well.. since I'm waiting to have sex, I don't usually have sex in dreams either, cuz eh, I still have that mindset in dreams. I guess other things could have happened, but they didn't either. The dream was strictly no touching, just looking. Guess that's good though, cuz it would have been really rude to have done stuff with her, in the dream, considering I don't have permission from her to dream of such things. I could always ask, but that'd be a bit nutty, cuz she's a friend, not a play toy.

Maybe I am nutty or, nuttily too polite? LOL

Posted by Me on 6/25/2004 03:07:21 PM | Comments?

Okay, so far I've finished two days of being gluten and casein free hopefully, and I'm not really feeling too happy about it. Think it would help if I went out shopping and got more stuff to eat, because right now, there isn't much here I can eat. Also would need some new cookware, since all of our pans are scratched, and as others have said who I asked, you don't want scratched pans, because gluten can hide in the scratches. So basically, right now my food choices are a bit limited, and even more limited by how I can cook. Fun!

So yeah, feeling a bit annoyed. Little bit more quick to anger too, lol.

Oh well, night night.

Posted by Me on 6/25/2004 01:44:22 AM | Comments?

Damn hot weather, I've had a headache for the past few days now, and my throat is feeling a bit dry.. maybe I just need to drink more water?

Naw, couldn't be that.

In other news, I'm done posting for now.

Posted by Me on 6/24/2004 03:09:45 PM | Comments?

Stopped by Hallmark today, and the girl that was working there was cute! I found her quite attractive. She seemed nice to, or was just able to act nice to customers. The point of this? There is none.

Anyone watch the Daily Show? It's like a news show, but it's more meant to be funny as well. Last night's was great, they pointed out some lies Cheney and Bush made. I always enjoy when they show a clip of Cheney denying something, then they pop up a clip showing him doing exactly what he said he didn't do. Though I'd rather not enjoy when Bush and Cheney are caught lying, because I'd rather just like to believe they were honest mistakes. I can't though, since they are so freaking dishonest about almost everything it seems. Yeah, Clinton lied about having his dick sucked, oh big deal. Least he didn't lie to get the country into war which only made the country less safe, and ruined thousands of American lives. Bush's re-election campaign seems to be centered on bullshit-slinging. Not mudslinging, but bullshit, because that's basically all it is. And ya know, it's just great to know how he knows he sucks, because what, about 76% of his campaign ads have beed negative attack ads on Kerry. Hmm.. now when he is running in an election to keep his job, shouldn't he be telling us why he should keep it, instead of spending most of his time on bullshit that isn't even true about his competition? It's pathetic, that he can legally lie to, to get re-elected.

Sigh.. and whenever someone fucks up, no matter how royally, Bush and pals have that person's back. They'll explain how great that person is, etc. No need for accountability, oh no! If you are a loyal yes men, then you are the greatest and can do no wrong. But if you dare to speak out against Bush, even if you speak the truth, then Bush and pals will try to destroy you and your family. They don't fucking care who they hurt, they are just fucking worthless people. I have absolutely no trust in anything they say and do, because they lost that trust. How am I supposed to believe what is said, when it seems like no one is ever in trouble for fucking up, and a lot of what is being said is bullshit anyway. It's just sickening, and even more sickening so many idiots in this country buy it.

Oh yeah, and John McCain needs to act like a man with courage. He wrote a book about it, but he's being a coward. He should find a way to run with Kerry as VP. He doesn't have to leave his party. But this country has been so fucked up and divided by Bush, he should stand up and serve his country bravely once again. Try to help unit this country once again! Is he gonna though? Nope. Looks like he is even supporting Bush! The man who threw bullshit at him, when he was trying to run for President. So when McCain talks about different kinds of courage, I really don't think he has much politically courage. Seemed like he did, but now that it appears he is gonna be a good little Bush man, I can't see any. Hopefully I'm wrong in what appears to be happening though. McCain was one politician I did have some respect for.

I hate politics. Why must the people on the top be the most worthless piles of shit ever? Oh yeah, because the American people are FUCKING morons. Gawd.

Oh well.. was thinking of working on my 2nd blog now, least try to get it up and running, but rather go watch TV and eat something I won't beable to starting tomorrow. So, later tonight, hopefully.

Posted by Me on 6/22/2004 09:33:28 PM | Comments?

A hex on all of those who didn't wish me luck! Though I doubt that many of you actually read the wish me luck part, before my appointment, so well.. y'all are off the hook then.

I was gonna say the doctor's appointment went as bad as I thought it would, but that would be wrong. He did not accept the testing I had done from Enterolab, but that's just because he never heard about it. So while he is now thinking I don't have any real problems with Gluten, I'm going ahead anyway. I was feeling a lot of the anger and hurt previous doctors had caused me in the past when he was saying that he thought it was just IBS or something, and not agreeing with my findings, but I'm not mad at him now or anything. He was very nice about dealing with me, drew more blood to do more testing for gluten problems, and was supportive of my plan to go gluten free. So while I didn't get what I wanted, I guess he gave as much as he could.

Hmm.. and this doctor actually has a decent bedside manner, nice change from the last doctor I saw.

So tomorrow I begin my suffering to hopefully end my suffering. Nice uber-restricted diet, and well lifestyle. I was thinking of making like a food diary online, just to whine in and stuff, and to keep me honest. Well to help. More the motivation the better, I don't always say. Mem, if yer reading.. umm.. hopefully I'll beable to figure out how to make a 2nd blogger, if not.. well, I'll be pestering you.

And think I'm gonna go over to the the Celiac message board I post on and ask if anyone there actually had doctors accept Enterolab's results. So ta for now.

Posted by Me on 6/22/2004 05:14:32 PM | Comments?

So tomorrow I go see the doctor I had the biopsies done with. I figure he is gonna tell me I don't have Celiac, Gluten isn't a problem, since the biopsies were fine. Unless the nurse over the phone told me wrong. I would like it if he was open to the testing I had done with the other doctor, and was willing to agree what he found works as a diagnosis too. Does it really matter if he disagrees? No, not really. I'm planning on going gluten free Wednesday, anyone wanna volunteer to hold me please?? But it would just be nice to have him agree and hear him say that I have it too. Just to me, it'd be like redemption for all the times doctors told me wrong, and closure to that too. Be a nice way to end this 10 year trial. Well, getting healthy would be nicer.. but I'm speaking from my involvement with doctors.

Wish me luck!

Hmmm.. so yeah, if anyone heard about the American who got his head cut off on Friday, and how pictures were posted on some Arabic website, and how awful they were and how this one reporter said she had to turn off her TV from seeing them, well.. I came across them. No, I wasn't looking, a website I visit by every so often had a link to it. So I checked it out, and well.. yeah, he had his head cut off. Hopefully faster than the other guy did. And yep, the pictures aren't pretty, though I have seen worse. But eh, guess I can understand why the one reporter lady had to turn off her computer, well not really.. since all she had to do was close the webpage.

And on that happy note, I'll end for now.

Posted by Me on 6/22/2004 03:27:20 AM | Comments?

Been in such a do nothing mood for awhile. Was gonna post here last night, but comp like froze up.. and bah, too much effort to wait for to restart.

Have you ever dry heaved before? I did yesterday Morning, and boy, that's quite fun! Sitting there, wrenching, trying to throw up but nothing comes up, and it doesn't feel good. Eventually I forced myself to stop, realizing nothing was gonna come up (eventhough I had ate about 5 hours earlier).. besides my mouth watering like crazy. Being the incredible smart before I am, I decided to eat about an hour after that. Had some pringles and left over pizza! Hey, I figured if I end up throwing up, might as well each something that isn't healthy, ya know? I didn't though, think I could of, stomach seemed to feel like it was wondering if I was an idiot. Just moved slow, and I was fine.

Hmm.. there were other things I wanted to mention yesterday, but can't remember what. I could voice my disproval at the crap Bush does, but don't feel like it right now, so I'll end here.

Posted by Me on 6/21/2004 07:54:13 PM | Comments?

Happy Father's Day to the fathers out there! Hopefully your ungrateful kids will act like they care..

Oy.. I think I ruined the well wishes there at the end? Oops!

Hmm.. bought a golf glove and a basketball today for Father's Day. First time I've ever bought a golf glove, so there goes my buying a golf glove cherry.. I feel so dirty!

Err.. enough rambling like a crazy person, later.

Posted by Me on 6/20/2004 12:55:16 AM | Comments?