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So if nothing has changed since I saw the breaking news earlier today, that American guy who was kidnapped got his head cut off today. The reports were saying that pictures were posted on some Arabic website, and that they were really bad. One reporter lady person said she had to turn off her computer when she saw them. And it's not like I want to see them, but damn.. don't they understand human nature? That just makes people want to see them more, since they're being hyped like that.

Oh well.. I won't spend my time looking though, not a sicko. =)

But is this any real surprise to anyone that this happened? They hate us enough to kill themselves to just get one of us. What do you expect to happen when they capture one of us? Give us candies and flowers and let us go? Maybe Bush and pals thought that was possible, but eh, it ain't. Oh wait, that's how they thought we'd be greeted when we invaded another country, my bad. Still, how can it surprise anyone, when something like this happens? They're hate, is kinda up there on the scale.

Did anyone think all the candle light vigils and prayers was gonna save him? I figure those were done just to try and comfort the family who were worried about him. Unless we wanna see this war as a battle between good and evil, and mandated by God as Bush seems to think. Guess since all the prayers didn't help, their God is stronger? Wheee.. send me hate mail!

But I don't think it's good he died, just saying not surprising. I don't think they would have let him go even if they got what they wanted, ya know? So hopefully his family will beable to heal, and maybe make a ton of money from interviews? Heck.. if patheticly disgusting reporters want to use their grief for ratings, might as well make money out of it right? Hmm..

Oh well, ta for now.

Posted by Me on 6/18/2004 04:09:32 PM | Comments?

Yesterday, for whatever reasons, I was looking through my highschool yearbooks, plus middle school and some elmentary, and just a ton of other things I collect that are like memory producing if I can remember what they are from.

Anyway, argh! I think. This girl I knew in senior year, she seemed like a real nice person, was cute too! And she gave me a senior picture with a note written on the back of it, saying nice things, while also leaving her number to call her over the summer. Another thing she did was write me a note, which is in my senior year book along with the picture, which she wrote in a class we had together and in which she sat behind me. Now, me being the clueless wonder I was in highschool, I wonder if she was actually like trying to flirt? Still being somewhat clueless, I don't know if it was just being friendly, or flirting. And yeah, I never did call her.. mainly because I must have read the note on the picture when she gave it to me, and forgot about her leaving me her number.. d'oh!

I wonder, should I try calling it now? I wonder if that would seem insane. What if her parents answer, and are like, crazy freak! I could always check the phone book.. but that seems a bit freaky stalkerish too. But would it be really? It's the polite and nice thing to do, to appologize for never calling.. even if it's been only 9 years, right?

Oh well.. that does remind me of the girl in middle school who did flirt with me, but I think more as a means of torture. Pretty sure we sat near each other in our classes somehow, and in one class, social studies, the teacher had put the desks together (two together) with maps on them, and she was sitting down looking it over and commenting about where we should have our honey moon. I don't think she was serious though.. since she was coming on so strong about it.

Ya know what, I really hate how the school gives out yearbooks until like the last day or so. You really can't get enough people to sign it in that time, and that's plain EVIL!

Oh, and yesterday I had Burger King for breakfast, because well.. why not? Once I go gluten free, I'll never be able to do that again, and what I got SUCKED. Guess that's good though, since I won't be missing that.

Hmmm.. and I need to drink some beer sometime, because that's got gluten in it too. Sure, I might HATE the taste of it, and have no plans of drinking it anyway, but I won't have a choice in the matter, so might as well drink some while I still can.

And well, enough posting for now.

Posted by Me on 6/16/2004 03:24:51 PM | Comments?

Oh yeah, I just remembered something.

Our computer that seemed to die, well I tried turning it on again last night, and it came on, though into safe mode. I wasn't sure what to do about it, so I just turned it off so my brother could fix it today. Today though, when he went to turn it on, guess what happened? It was working fine.. no mention of any of the errors it was having.

Oh well.. so, that's good.

Posted by Me on 6/15/2004 11:56:20 PM | Comments?

Feeling so tired of all of a sudden..

Hmm, been doing some research online into gluten sensitivity and celiac disease, and I guess to be proper I can't say I have Celiac Disease, because that's when the villi in the small intestines are like dead. It's like the "end stage" to being gluten sensitive, if I'm understanding everything right. So it's more or less just splitting hairs, both require the same treatment approach.

Speaking of treatment.. ugh, still need to research for to be gluten free. I know some things, just the basics, but really need to put a few hours in and get all my questions answered. Am I being vague? Oh well.. just tired, so rambling.

Speaking of tired.. that's enough for now. Might try to get to bed early, or something.

Posted by Me on 6/15/2004 11:43:57 PM | Comments?

Oh gawd.. our other computer I think just died or something. Restarted it, it loaded up all good, but then a blue screen popped up with this error message or something, and the comp restarted itself. Loaded up to a black screen.. so I hit the restart button, and then it loaded up normal again, though had error messages and asked if I wanted to run set up, so I said yeah. Goes to this screen with all this numbers and such that make no sense..

Weird, so I turned it off. Turned it back on, and damnit, it is broken or something. The monitor's light was blinking green to yellow, and that's it. Monitor wouldn't show signs of life, and comp wasn't doing anything.. so guess it's offical dead? Or.. needing a reformat somehow..

Sucks, cuz we had just put a really fun game on that comp too, lol

Posted by Me on 6/15/2004 12:35:26 AM | Comments?

So I get on the computer just now, and check my email out of habit, not expecting there to be anything of importance besides email, and whoops, I was wrong. For once I actually wasn't wondering if my test results from Enterolab would be in, and there they were.

Interpretation: Analysis of this stool sample indicates you have dietary gluten sensitivity resulting in an associated autoimmune reaction to the human enzyme tissue transglutaminase, but no small intestinal malabsorption/damage. You also have antibodies to the main cow's milk protein, casein, and hence, you are immunologically sensitive to food products containing cow's milk.

HLA gene analysis reveals that you have a genotype that predisposes to gluten sensitivity (HLA-DQ1,3 especially that involving DQB1*0602 and 0301). This genotype also can predispose to microscopic colitis and other autoimmune syndromes.

For optimal health and prevention of further small intestinal damage, osteoporosis, damage to other tissues (like nerves, joints, pancreas, skin, liver, among others), and malnutrition, recommend a strict gluten free diet and re-testing in one year to insure this reaction is lessening. If you are experiencing any symptoms, these may resolve following a gluten free
diet. Since antibodies to cow's milk are found with a greater frequency in gluten sensitive individuals and people with certain autoimmune diseases, removal of these foods from your diet may benefit you directly, as well as add to the benefits of a gluten-free diet (if you avoid gluten).

So if that didn't make any sense to ya.. it's basically saying, "Yes, you are gluten sensitive, so stop eating it!!" And finally I know what's wrong with me! Only took about 10 years. Though when I see my doctor, if he'll accept these results, I'm gonna ask if he can test for other food allergies, soy, etc to be safe.

Hmmm.. not jumping for joy right now though, felt kinda happy reading the results. Think I'm starting to go into it's too good to be true mode right now, but just gotta keep believing, and work on changing around my life to aviod gluten (and casein) now. Need to dispel the thoughts of, "now what.. what will go wrong now. I got what I wanted, but what's the catch?" Heck! There shouldn't be a catch, the catch is it took 10 years, and large parts of my youth to find an answer. So I think I've done enough catching already.

Anyone got any quick ideas on what I should eat tomorrow? Maybe tomorrow or the next day, I'll enjoy gluten foods for a bit longer.. then have to never eat them again, gluten having wheat, burly etc in them.. and holy fuck, major win/rain/hail all of a sudden, so finishing this entry now!

Edit:

Well that passed. As I was saying, happy I got the results, yes, but damn.. so much work needs to be done now. I know the family won't go off gluten, so I need to get my own cooking stuff, find a place to store food of my own, so it won't get contimated, etc.. oy. Unless need to get my butt in gear to figure out what I need to do. Hmm.. and while I do that, I figure I can have a day or two of enjoying the yummies food I'll never be able to eat again, yes? So, quick.. ideas damnit!

Anyway, that's it for now.

Posted by Me on 6/14/2004 08:18:19 PM | Comments?