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So, I've decided if I wanted to become a stalker.. I'd totally suck at it. Unless I'm just unlucky. Either way, I couldn't find a thing on yahoo about anyone I knew.. besides the one person I mentioned. And didn't find anything else about her either.. Some, either had nothing come up.. or there were way too many websites, and I couldn't narrow them down well enough.

So, pretty much.. have only been able to find one website for Me, the mentioned person.. and Mem. *waves* I see you in my tracker, hehe.. and yeah, the one I found about me counts, since I didn't know it existed. Even has a pic of me on it!

Nothing scarey, was just about when I won the poetry contest at my college in 2000. I could go looking for it, but it's Saturday.. and I'm a lazy bum. =P

*pokes Mem*

Bet you could find it, you're a good internet stalker!

(We were trying to stalk each other, and she ended up finding my sister too.. besides me, lol)

Posted by Me on 6/14/2003 05:39:24 PM | Comments?

Not gonna say anything useful, rather waste time putting names of people I know in Yahoo.. to see if anything interesting has happened to them, or if anything comes up. Got my Highschool yearbook right here, so gonna go do that.

Maybe later tonight or tomorrow I'll mention if I find anything.

Did put the name in of someone I know in spring of 2002, already. At my last Semester in college. Found her a webpage she made in highschool.. from when she was a Junior, lol.

Hmmm.. does this make me a stalker, or just bored and curious to know what's up with people I use to know?

Oh well, not like I'm actually gonna track anyway down, so figure the second one. =)

Posted by Me on 6/13/2003 12:32:13 AM | Comments?

Hmm.. eye lid actually seems to be doing better, doesn't twitch as bad now.. or as often, but has everytime I yawned today. And it just did it again, though no yawn.. twitch doesn't feel as strong, but eye lid still feels funny.

Hmmm.. maybe I could see a doctor about this, once the health insurance I put in gets through? Oh wait! Can't do that. The lady who we went through the paper work with, was wrong when she said everything should go through. It hasn't! Got more paper work to fill out in the mail. But, found out today.. well, guess my mom called the lady back, to find out what was up with this new stuff.. that I need a doctor to get health insurance. One of the things I was signing up for, was Medicaid, and since my parents support me, I need to prove I'm disabiled and can't work. To do this, I need to be seeing a doctor.. who will need to say that I am. But I have no regular doctor I see, because I don't have health insurance.

Though not sure how much help a doctor would be anyway. I look normal. Testing, and looking at my insides come back normal. So, it's just my word.. since a doctor, can't get any physical evidence things don't work. Heh. I'm fucked. Be a waste of money to go see a freaking useless doctor. And yeah, been through since process once before (disability for not being able to work, might as well get a check for government, right? lol), when I had health insurance, and was seeing doctors. You know what happened? A fucking doctor lied to them, said I was getting better. Asshole.

And fucking asshole no good losers who need to fake being sick, and try to cheat the government. If such pieces of shit didn't exist, it would make things easier on those of us who actually are sick.

So anyway.. after my mom got off the phone, she came in here.. where I was at the time, starting explainning things.. and broke down crying. Real fun. Mainly because her father just died, basically.. though, I can understand her frustration with my situation. Heck, it's not something I'm enjoying either. But guess it's painful for a parent to see a child suffer. And she said she thinks I've been sick for fo long, that I'm scared to work.. umm.. hell no! Though, I didn't exactly say that. Figure it isn't the right response to someone crying. It's so not true though. I would really like to be healthy. Yes, means I would have to work.. but, means I might actually have a life too! Can't see any reason not to want that.

Anyway, they are home now.. they drove back up after the Funeral monday. Good thing to come out of this, is they got to see the mother of my cousin's friend who was on Fear Factor. I had missed the first part of the episode, so they got a tape of it. So, got to see all of it. It was the Breakfast of Champions episode, I think it's called.. and her name is Susan. Met her at my cousin's wedding last June. So, was nice getting to see the part I missed. She did do a lot better than I thought, cuz she had been freaking out a bettle got into her hair.. when we were at my Aunt and Uncle's, lol.. then, on the episode, she ate a lot of gross stuff. Think, her stomach just ran out of room though.. which is kinda unfair, but life. Been nice if she had made it through.

That's all for now folks.

Posted by Me on 6/11/2003 05:08:57 PM | Comments?

Blah, blah.. just making an entry to make an entry. Don't feel like saying much, so will have to make a catch up entry later sometime.

Posted by Me on 6/11/2003 12:04:22 AM | Comments?

And my eye lid is still twitching.. four days now!!

Yes, my life is so exciting.. I talk about this.

Hmm.. though, the twitch is feeling more like it's caused by blood flow, pulsating through some veins or something? Which, not sure if that's even worse then it being something to do with a nerve or muscle.. why would blood flow do that? Could there be a problem with the veins or something? Eye lid does feeling "funny" too.

Maybe if I had health insurance, I'd bother asking a doctor. Haven't been approved for the free stuff I signed up for yet.. and, well.. what exactly could a doctor do, poke it?

Err.. anyway, later.

Posted by Me on 6/09/2003 04:36:34 AM | Comments?

Man.. I am such a sad person. Accidently came across a russian bride service, lol.. mail order. So, curiously went to it.. to glance around. Actually found myself thinking, ohhh.. she might be nice to know, or her.. oy. Very sad.. and even more sad, I just noticed I was wearing my headphones, that aren't plugged in.. geez.

Hmmm.. eye lid is still twitching too! So it's been going on, for over 72 hours now. Could even see it twitching when I looked in the mirror, and it feels slightly puffy.. but, still it's just off and on. Nothing constant. Thank whoever. Though, this can't be good.. since nothing has happened to cause it to do this..

This morning, got my sister's car alarm put in. Took about an hour and 40 minutes, instead of the hour they thought. Wasn't too bad. They had some nice couchs there to sit in, while you wait, and they have this huge TV. I mean, huge. And on it was playing Better Off Dead.. nice, teenish type movie from the 1980's. For those who might have seen it, it was a semi-ski movie. And it had the crazy paper boy. I WANT MY TWO DOLLARS! Who would pop up out of no way, and chase after the main character, yelling that phase. Believe this movie has some elements taken from it, for spoofs. Southpark's, ski one.. took stuff from this movie.

There were some other movies.. too.. but, I was looking through a magazine by the time they were on. Weren't complete movies, one of the guys there would change the channel, when a movie ended.. to another channel.

No problems with that thought. So it's good. Alarm is working.

Sister and parents left this morning too. Should have arrived by now, I think.. or should be soon.

Hmm.. head is starting to hurt. Oh well, not much else to talk about so me go.

Posted by Me on 6/08/2003 12:54:19 AM | Comments?