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Journal

Hmm.. I dunno post right now, really. Yay SU won it's final four game!

As for everything else, been interesting.. there was a little "ice storm" up here in upstate NY, there are lots of people with no power.. we're lucky, we got ours on in time to see the game, same with the cable. I'll go more into detail, tomorrow or the next day.

Grrr at daylight savings time!

Posted by Me on 4/05/2003 11:31:14 PM | Comments?

Funny.. Sam IM'ed him with her AIM name, with a Linkin Park song. Since it wasn't her usual name, I almost thought it was someone who had just read my journal, and sent it to me.. was kind of like, eh? Until I remembered it was her name. SO chatting with her now.

And I just rememberd! Watched a movie this morning. Amazing huh? Actually, I had been flipping around.. put on HBO, and there was this movie on, the main character, was maybe 10-12? Nothing that great, right? Well, the girl looked familiar. Her face, and especially her eyes, looked like Eliza Dushku. That's the actress who plays Faith on Buffy and Angel. So, watched the movie for awhile.. trying to decide if it was her or not. Finally decided it was. Couldn't be anyone else, going by her eyes and face. Ended up watching the rest of the movie, was sorta interesting. Waited for the credits, didn't exactly have credits. But listed the casts name, not by part. Saw her name, so figure I was right. Name of the movie was "That Night" by the way.

A few ago, I put Angel Faith Buffy into yahoo, to see if I could find a site to spell her name right.. first thing to come up was a story someone wrote, that was basically a porn. Weird. Didn't read.. but eh.. I know how to get back that, hehe.

Also, been sticking to my in bed by 1, and out of bed by 9 rule. Kind of annoying me.. but, hey.. it's 1 pm, and I've already seen a movie. Usually, I wouldn't even be up yet! Oh well.. me go now.

Posted by Me on 4/04/2003 01:16:49 PM | Comments?

Hmm.. I need to do some updating to this journal.. and my main site, maybe I'll try to do that sometime soon. Maybe.

Don't have much to say right now, not feeling as bitter as I did last night.. on AOL and yahoo, no one else seems to be.. fun! Need to go listen to more Linkin Park, and such to help my mood.

*cracks up*

Posted by Me on 4/04/2003 12:33:20 PM | Comments?

I wonder, why do I go on yahoo anymore? I never see anyone that I use to talk too, or like talking too. Why bother? Just a waste of computer resources.. blah. AOL, not as bad.. sometimes I see people I like talking too, not as rare as yahoo.. but still, not that often. What a wonderful life!

Heh.. I'm feeling bitter, hence the tone of the entry. Not like anyone cares.

Later.

Posted by Me on 4/03/2003 11:19:26 PM | Comments?

Hmpth.. no one found my really lame entry for April fool's day funny? Bleck.

So, in about the last two weeks.. have had two bombshells dropped on me, hmm.. is that bad to say? I don't mean literally, but there are literal bombshells dropping on people..

Anyway, 2 weeks ago, about, I found out someone I think of as a sister, lets say "spiritually" not by blood is planning on changing her gender. Doesn't have the money for it, and you need to live as the other gender for a year and get therapy, because having the operations to change it. She said she's been living as a male now, and.. well.. kind of confusing, in the fact that, well.. if she's gonne be a guy, really shouldn't call her hun, though.. we sorta discussed that, and I'm still calling her that for now. If/When she does have the gender changed, not exactly sure what to call her.. umm.. don't have any close relationships with males either.. so, it'll be something for me to deal with. Not upset or anything though, it's what she wants, what makes her happy.. so I'm all for it.

The other I mentioned in here earlier, about the girl I've know for over 4 years now. My feelings for her, could be explain as Friend/Sibling/Parental. Nice mix huh? But I think I have feelings that could all be described in one of those areas. Met her at 14, she's 18 now. So, hearing she has recently started having sex with her boyfriend just left me.. umm.. almost speachless. Shocked. Didn't know what to say. It just didn't fit how I see her in my mind, which must happen to a lot of parents, of their kids who grow up. At least I wasn't.. really upset. Though in my last post I said I know she wouldn't be a kid forever, and has to become an adult sometime and grow up, I don't think having sex makes someone grown up or an adult. And at 18, I don't consider that being an adult, and feel there is still a lot of growing that needs to happen. But.. anyway. I just didn't know how to think or react. She told me it wasn't like she was a slut, they had only done it twice. Which I agreed with her.. I didn't want to be mean or put her down at all. And she said I hadn't lost her, she was still Sam. So that helped. But certainly wasn't something I thought I'd hear about for some time.

If I ever have en actual daughter though.. she isn't allowed to grow up, start dating or anything. I don't think I could handle it! LOL

In other news, been good the last two days! Been to bed before 1 am, much better than the 5-6 am I had been staying up too, and been getting up at 9 am. Much earlier than I had been as well. Trying to get a routine going, hopefully should help my body out.. so far, nothing else has.. sigh. Been eating three meals a day too, instead of two.. or one. So, that's good too.

Well, that's all for now.

Posted by Me on 4/02/2003 02:07:43 PM | Comments?

Last night, I was on my way home, and there was a slight accident. Well, more than slight. This dude, which I'm going to guess was driving drunk? Slammed into me. I did seem him, swirving a little, as we approached each other. We were in oppositve lanes, travelling in opposite directions. I tried to aviod him, well, think it was a him.. but when we neared, his Jeep just veared across the line between lanes, and he hit into me. During the impact, I can remember seeing him fly out of his Jeep.. he didn't have the top down, and I don't think he was wearing a seat belt. Why my mind remembers this? Don't know. I would have found it kind of funny, if there wasn't that flying glass too. Ouch. The good news is, I'm fine. Walked away actually. Good thing for air bags and seat belts. The bad news, believe my car is totalled.

Anyway, after a few minutes, I maybe stupidly got out of my car. Felt fine though, for the most part. No internal injuries. So, I decided I'd try to find a phone, unfortunatly, when I started to look, that's when things got worse. Bugs Bunny, dropped a one thousand pound acme weight on me. It really hurt, because it weighed one thousand pounds! Luckily, it didn't kill me, just broke most of my bones, so I'm in a body caste now. In the hospital too. The nurses were nice enough to let me use a laptop. Since I have no use of my arms right now, I'm typing with my tongue, and been at this for almost an hour now. And I'd just like to say, this keyboard tastes really bad. Like someone farted on it. I really don't want to think about where the person who used this last, hands were. Anyway, thought I'd like ya all know I was okay, and that if anyone knows where Elmer Fudd, I'd like to hire him to kill that damn rabbit.

Till later. =P

Posted by Me on 4/01/2003 02:07:25 PM | Comments?