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Well.. gonna be having a house guest for a few days, which kind of sucks.. since, this computer is in what could be called the guest room. So.. the times at night I normally use the computer, I won't beable to use it.. bleck. But, I should be getting to bed earlier at least then.. if I can get to sleep, shoulder willing.. fun fun fun!

There was a slight incident I ranted about, in my journal on Sunday.. well.. there was a bit of an overreaction on my part, which caused the other person involved to react not too well either. Think we both made mistakes.. both of us, and such.. though I could have been much more major in my handling of things.. said I was sorry, and well.. hopefully she can be understanding.

Anyway.. that's it for now.. will post more later, maybe tonight.. or tomorrow.

Posted by Me on 2/20/2003 04:31:58 PM | Comments?

Oyy.. just typed out the last episode of Buffy for a friend who had missed it, toooo much typing! So, I'll try to type something interesting here.. later.. all typed out. Bleck..

Not like I ever have anything interesting to say anywho. =)

Posted by Me on 2/20/2003 03:00:12 AM | Comments?

Hmm.. forgot to post in this today, or yesterday.. whatever. Shoulder is still killing me, neck sort of.. making sleep such a pleasure thing to try. I normally sleep on my left shoulder! Well, sort of. That's impossible now. Man, anyway.. won't bore you with those details right now.

Just posting quick, saying how I forgot to post.. so there would be a post! Don't feel like saying much right now.

Hehe.. later.

Posted by Me on 2/19/2003 03:58:23 AM | Comments?

Another appointment at the chiropractor today.. don't really see anything improving yet, but haven't been in any intense intenstinal cramping pain.. for awhile, though that's not a usual thing, but maybe it's helping? Had another fun night of not being able to sleep because of pain.. but eh, can't remember what it's like not to be in pain, so no biggie.. just more pain than usual.

On the way home, stopped at the post box office, to drop off some mail to send. 3 other people had the same idea, doing the same.

Watching the news, noticed there's a little snow storm coming through the mid Atlantic. Here, we're supposed to get about 8 inches today.. and have a winter advisory. If I spelled that right.. sheesh.. only 8 inches, that's nothing in this area. We had more last week, when it snowed all day on Thursday. Also heard comments the roads were bad. What roads were they riding on? The roads are fine, you just need to drive slower. Sheesh people.. they seem to forgot home to drive in snow from day to day.

Anyway.. all for now.

Posted by Me on 2/17/2003 04:21:35 PM | Comments?

An okay day? Naw, good day. Feeling good now. Needed to get certain emotions out, ones which the full moon hyped up.. and they're gone now. Just left with feeling good now. Which the moon is being nice enough to hype up. There are advantages and disadvantages to being effected by the moon. And, it's not just full moon.. can be the few days around it. The few days around quarter moons, and new moons. Fun at times.. at others.. not, hehe.

I find it funny, though.. that someone who comment on my journal. Saying it made me look spoiled? *shrugs* This is my personal and private place to rant and raze about whatever I feel like.. if someone takes that as spoiled brat, well.. that's there problem. This is just a good form of therapy, venting what I need to vent.. and I read about a study that showed, keeping a journal like this, actually helped lower blood pressure.. and stress. So heh.. if doing something that's good for my health makes me look like a spoiled brat, then so be it.

Though.. my blood pressure is naturally low, but why not keep it low.. it's fun when I stand up quick and become all light headed! Screw drugs. ;)

Posted by Me on 2/17/2003 01:38:27 AM | Comments?

Great day today.. first, I get up out of bed, a little after 4:00 pm, and this was after I went to bed at 4:00 am. 12 wasted hours! But blah, just didn't sleep well.. kept waking up, my shoulder and neck were really hurting.. when 12:00 came, my alarm went off, which I turned off.. and decided to lay in bed for awhile.. lucky me, that while turned in to the longest I had been able to stay asleep all night.

Had the wonderful incident happen that I mentioned in my last post too.

Tonight, I finally got around to doing something I've been putting off, for a friend (One who I believe is a friend, and not a mis-judgement by me). Had planned on doing it tonight, since Friday.. and stuck to the plan. Go me! Something, I feel is nice to do.. and took about an hour, which surprised me.. but, that wasn't time wasted. Should hopefully bring someone, some cheer and joy. Won't know for awhile, will keep anyone who cares posted.

So.. anywho.. all things considered, was an okay day.

Posted by Me on 2/17/2003 12:35:17 AM | Comments?

I so don't understand people at times. It's fucking bullshit.

You think someone you know, seems to be nice.. has been nice, and you consider them a friend. Then they just go ahead and do some things that hurt you. When you mention it to them.. letting them know how you've been felt hurt, and such.. what do they do? They just fucking ignore it. I mean, what kind of damn shit is that? You put yourself out there, to be honest and open about your feelings, and you'd think they'd at least beable to maybe comment on it, maybe even say sorry? Or explain themselve's?

Bah.. whatever. This seems to always happen, I always give people the benefit of the doubt, and eventually they go ahead and show me I was completely wrong. But why the hell act nice, and seemingly considerate at first? Why not just be the bitch or whatever they end up acting like, saving me the pain? BAH! I guess when someone keeps claimming to be evil, and such.. even when it doesn't seem they are, it's best to just agree with them, and not care about them as a friend. Would save me a lot of trouble and pain in the end.

At least I'm not really feeling that hurt.. more just filled with rage, but that is going away now. No reason to feel hurt and betrayed. Why let her have the satisfaction, right? Pffft.. Could have ripped into her, with the message I left.. try to insult her and offend her and such. But didn't do that.. what would that do, besides maybe make her mad as well? And possible make me feel bad for doing it.. bleck, I suck. Oh well.. part of life. But fuck life, I ain't gonna let this get to me.. too badly. Can't help my nature.. being a caring person.

*shrug*

Posted by Me on 2/16/2003 07:30:09 PM | Comments?

Saw the Michael Jackson interview thing tonight. They were re-airing it on VH1, so I was interested in seeing what the big fuss was.. and well, honestly.. to join in the player hating on him. But.. I really saw nothing worth hating him over. I don't think he has any harmful intentions to children, though.. I think he isn't that fully developed on an emotional and mental level. Seemed to be somewhat child like, in his attitudes. I also think some of the things he said, could certainly be taken the wrong way.. but he didn't mean them that way. The guy, who Michael thought was a friend, was more of an asshole, wanting to twist things around to make a buzz about himself. One of the scrum reporters, they talked about.

It's more sad, Michael was beat by his father.. he didn't have much of a childhood, seemed to have stunted his mental and or emotional growth. When he talked about spreading love, to children by sleeping with them.. what he really should have said, was more along the lines of it's comforting, to kids who don't feel love.. or are hurting, or something like that. Most all humans, get comfort from a kind touch, and just being around someone. Kids I use to babysit from, one night when I was sitting them for a few days, one of them couldn't sleep.. he drank too much soda, I believe. Tried just being by his bed side to help him fall asleep, trying to calm him.. cuz he was upset about it. Then he came downstairs, to sleep on one of the chairs.. I was on the couch. Didn't work, so he joined me on the couch.. me in sleeping bag, him not. Didn't help him for asleep either.. so tried the floor, and that eventually worked. Was there anything sexual involved with him on the couch with me? Hell no. Only some sick minded pervert would think that way. There can just be comfort taken, from having an adult of the speices nearby. It's normal in the animal Kingdom.. and we are animals.

Though.. I don't exactly believe him about the face jobs not having been done.. but eh.. not my buisness, just like the asshole reporters. So I won't make a big thing about it.

Hmm.. anyway, think that's all I got to say. Gonna be a cold night, already -10 F below.. should be colder when the temp drops. Glad I don't need to be outside!

Posted by Me on 2/16/2003 12:31:50 AM | Comments?