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Bah.. I'm feeling pissed off right now.

Oh, and the temp last night got down under -15 F, not wind chill.. air temp, brrrrrr! Cold.

Well.. bye.

Posted by Me on 1/24/2003 10:09:07 PM | Comments?

"It's a damn cold night, trying to figure out this life.." Song lyric from Avril Lavigne's song "I'm with you." Like that song for some reason, and the sound to it.. and it works well, just since it's cold here!! Last night it got down below 0. Not C, but F.. if it was 0 C, that would be warm, and yes, I can't spell them fully, lol.

Weird, last night.. I didn't get to bed, till about 6:30 am. Sucks. I just stay up. Around 5:30 am I was just staring out a window, it was snowing.. everything is white here, so it was fairly bright. Not sure why it was interesting, everything just looked nice.. it was freezing in the house too, had a blanket over me, and I was over a heater vent. Trapped the heat, was nice.

I was just reading in someone's blogger, and she was talking about a friend she had, best friend.. that's been a friend of her's for a long time. Mentioned how others would betray her, eventually. It got me thinking. My life, it just seems.. people come into my life, we may hit it off.. then just drift apart. That's how it goes. Do I have a best friend? I really don't know if I can say that. What makes a best friend? Mem, is certainly a friend.. no offense to her, but not sure I'd apply the best label to her. Haven't really talked to her that much lately either.. but she does have her own life, I'm not complainning about that. I do remember, when I was a kid..there were "best" friends who I'd hang out with all the time. There was no real emotional support though, but boys don't care about those things. And I haven't seen any childhood friends, in like.. hmm.. 7-8 years. Friends I had made after that, well.. haven't seen them in over 2 years. Well, the ones I made at Karate. Friends I made at college, have disappeared from my life.. well with the whole graduation thing. I've had friends come and go on AOL. Online. Think it's just how my life is meant to be? Make friends, get to know them.. like them.. then it's hey.. whatever happened to so and so? It's kind of sad, if you think about it. Maybe I should be happy, might mean I'll get to know lots of people over my life span.. since they come and go. But, what about some nice long lasting bonds? And a love life.. hmm.. HA! It makes sense. If this theory is right, that totally gives a good reason as to why I have no absolutely no luck there. If people aren't meant to last in my life, of course nothing in the love area would work.. because that would last.

Hmmm.. that rambling make any sense? Blah. I dun care. Oh, tonight the wind chill is supposed to be -25 below F! Wohooo.. eh.

Need to check my email too.. but ugh, just not feeling physically well right now.

Posted by Me on 1/23/2003 09:06:29 PM | Comments?

It's soooo not fair. To anyone with a great memory whose been reading my journal since summer, may remember I mentioned my cousin's friend Susan was supposed to be on fear factor sometime. Well.. I had been checking the beginning of the fear factors, to see who is competing this fall.. and winter, to see if she's on, and guess what? I forgot to tonight.. when I turned it on, saw someone who was blonde like her, same name.. could have been her, wasn't sure.. but it was. Bleck, no fair.. did get to watch her to try and do the eating stunt.. which she couldn't complete.. icky.

I went to the fear factor website, and that pretty much confirmed it was her. Found an interview she did, about trying to eat the stuff.. icky. You can find it here.

Ah well.. maybe if I'm lucky I can catch the whole thing on repeats, well it from the beginning till when she had to leave.

Posted by Me on 1/20/2003 08:54:46 PM | Comments?

The eagles game annoyed me a bit last night. Could ya tell? Though I did feel better after bitching them out in this thing.. so it worked.

Just so sad, Eagles were a much better team than the Bucs, but Andy Reid did just an awful job coaching. I don't think the Eagles can ever win the big game, with him in charge. I remember their first game of the season, they lost to Houston because Reid lost his balls in the second half. He didn't play to win. What happened? They lost, and he said it was his fault.. rightfully so. I had hoped he learned his lesson, but obviously he didn't. He called most of the game against the Bucs were no freaking aggression, just too scared to make a mistake, which killed his offense. His players, well how could they get into the game? He never let them.. his miserable coaching led to their poor play.

It was really sad though, on Defense.. where I thought they had a great couch, they played too passive in the first half too. The play calling wasn't aggressive enough either, at least at half time he grew a pair of balls, and was able to keep the Buc's offense from doing much. Buc's offense only scored 3 points in the second half, compared with 17 in the first. Sigh..

Just so damn sad, and the when the Eagles finally starting to get things going, and Andy Reid was actually trying to take some risks, they had that awful call against them, that killed their drive.. and pretty much the ended the game. True, they had another drive going after that one.. but they pretty much didn't have much time left. Game should have been won by then, but Reid just scared shitless of making any mistakes I guess, so he cost his team the game.

They could use another reciever who knows what the concept of catching the ball means too.. bleck. Well gonna go check on Laundry.. and it's snowing here! Not that I really care, lol.

Posted by Me on 1/20/2003 04:45:04 PM | Comments?

Stupid fucking shit faced god damned asshole Refs!!!! That fucking "offensive pass interference" just called now in the eagles game was shit. Fucking bullshit. I don't give a flying fuck if the guy put his arms out, the mother fucker was running the over god damn direction. The refs suck such major fucking cock. Eagles finally get something good going, and the Refs fuck them over. God damn shitheads!!!

Eagles have been playing like pussies too. Play calling has been shit. No fucking balls. Andy fucking Reid has been a huge pussy. Bleck.. fucking pissing me off.

Blah.. worthless, they are playing so fucking worthless.

Posted by Me on 1/19/2003 06:02:24 PM | Comments?