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Journal

(back dated, reposted from Deadjournal)

Sigh.

I had things I wanted to do today, and like usual, really didn't get most of them done. I got a good start, but it's annoying. Should have had more done!

It seems like I'm really good at shooting myself in the foot like that. It really doesn't matter the situation, my impulses always seem to have a negative affect on me. I need to change that, but it's hard to fight yerself all the time, you know?

Blah!

Posted by Me on 5/24/2002 09:33:00 PM | Comments?

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Made some entries.

If you come here, you may have noticed entries for 20-22 just popped up. That would be because I just put them in. I thought it would be better than doing it all in one day, and I have be slacking off, so hopefully this makes up for it.

My computer is pretty much reformated and working now. The A drive still doesn't work though. Need to open it up, and switch some wires. Hopefully that'll fix it.

No real news for today though, I'm at school to work on a project which I don't think I'll get much work done on, lol. Hey, got the entries put in though!

I do have somethings I need to get handed in though, which are about 4 months late, ugh. It's only got to deal with my loans for college. Call me an idiot, you can. But, I should get to that, so I'm going to go now. Later.

Posted by Me on 5/23/2002 02:00:00 PM | Comments?

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Love is Funny.

I didn't know what to name this as a subject, so this one may not fit. This entry isn't about being in love either.

The past two nights, I've been talking to a friend of mine. I've known her since she was 14, and she's 17 now. The feelings I have for her go beyond frienship though. I would say I love her. Not in a romantic way, that'd be wrong. I love her in a friend/brotherly/fatherly kind of way. If that makes sense, but I do know I care about her deeply.

Her name is Samantha, Sam for short. And I won't go into what we talked about, because what she tells me is in confidence. Sorry.

Anyway, the funny thing is, I've never actually met her in real life. Only have talked to her online and on the phone. It's kind of annoying, caring so deeply about someone, and wanting to hug or hold them when they aren't feeling good, but you can't. As for her, I would put her at the top of my list of people I care for and love. I don't think I should tell her about my journal either, might annoy her that I said that!

There is someone else who I think I could say I care for as deeply though, but I rarely see her (Chace) online. Been a few months actually. Though I can feel it when I talk to her. And this wouldn't be a romantic kind either. Hmm, don't think I've ever been romantically in love with someone before.

Oh well, guess it could happen someday, right?

Posted by Me on 5/22/2002 10:51:00 AM | Comments?

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Good byes unsaid.

Last week the semester ended, and I didn't get to say good bye to some of the people I met unfortunately.

I did get to say good bye to Jen and Jill. I made sure to, the day before the final when I was helping them study. Also sent Jill an email. So that worked out fairly well. Also told them that they could email me anytime in the future, to let me know how things go. Be nice if I hear from one or both of them sometime.

Dorothea, I didn't say good bye to. I had a chance to, but I didn't want to bother her anymore. We passed in the hall, and she did give me a smile. So, while I didn't say good bye, I don't feel she thinks I'm as creepy and freaky as I thought. It gave closure you could say, and now I can remember her face with a smile on it.

The people I knew in NYPIRG, I didn't get to say good bye too. I really wanted to thank Kate, and let her know how much it meant to me, inviting me to come sit with them, but I didn't. That's one main thing I wanted to do, but good byes to them all would have been nice. I did email Kristen, who I've known the longest of them, though she hasn't replied yet. I don't think she will actually, she might if I email her again. It's not like she is mean or anything, she just doesn't seem to be to up with the replying I guess. It's alright though.

I guess it's good I'm not really feeling depressed about this either. I have a bit at other times, but right now I'm not. So I'll say that's good.

Much improved from last year where it was semi-end of the worldness.

Posted by Me on 5/21/2002 01:41:00 PM | Comments?

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Naming Names

Guess I'll name names now. I would be very surprised if someone I name actually reads this, anyway.

The first person I'll start with is Dorothea. She's the one who I was interested in, and I had things blow up in my face basically (well maybe it wasn't that bad). Made mistakes, and ones I'll beable to learn from. So that's good at least.

Next I'll name Jill and Jen. These are the two who I helped this last semester, in the class I TA. Jill I've mentioned more though. She's the one who brought me candy, told me I was an Angel, and asked me if I was single the one time. Her friend Jen was the one who was curious about that. Jill was also the one who I could feel when she was really upset, though never focused any of it at me when I was helping/talking to her at the time. Both are nice people though, I'd say.

Now comes the people who I knew in NYPIRG. I'm not sure if I've really mentioned all of them, but anyway, at the poetry slam, the group of people I mentioned were Kate, Tom, Kristen, and Ian. Kate was the one who invited me to come join them as I mentioned before. Her boyfriend is Tom, and Kristen and Ian are a couple. So I was the like lovely 5th wheel. Though I don't think I was viewed that way, hopefully.

Some, or most of the people above have also helped restore some faith to me in mankind you could say. It may sound silly, but it was good meeting them. I'm not sure if I've mentioned anyone else, but from now on I'll use names so it won't be confusing.

Thank me. ;)

Posted by Me on 5/20/2002 01:31:00 PM | Comments?

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Reformatting Sucks!

I started reformatting this comp yesterday (17th), and geez, it's a pain in the ass. Finally got the sound working again, but still need to reinstall a bunch more stuff. So that's why I'm being light on the entries, and have been.

Poor computer was sick, now hopefully it won't be.

A: drive seems to be broken though, so that'd be a hardware problem, since reformatting should have fixed it, if it was a software one.

I do have things to say though, and I'm hoping to post them soon. I just would like to get the issues with this computer finished first.

Till later.. wish me luck.

Posted by Me on 5/19/2002 12:48:00 AM | Comments?