Announcement: Everthing posted on this website is mine (unless other wise mentioned), and thus copy righted to me! If you find something you must have, just ask before stealing. It's rude to steal without premission, and my poorly paid team of laywers are just itching for a fight!

Journal

(back dated, reposted from Deadjournal)

Lonely?

I use to feel a lot more lonely, but I thought I was improving in that area. Actually I do think I am. Does that mean I found someone? Hardly. Why ever would that happen? But I wouldn't say I'm in the best of moods at the moment, and I'm thinking it would be nice if there was someone to just hold.. or hold me. Same difference.

Doesn't have to by a girlfriend type person, but perhaps just a very close friend type person. Hmmm, might be weird being held by a guy. Have never really been able to feel close (emotionally) to a guy. It's not like I was abused by one in this life when I was younger, so there's no real reason. But, I'm getting off topic. I just feel it would be great to have a very close friend or girlfriend (the later would rock), that I could feel comfortable enough to open up too completely.. and feel the comfort I need. Though, this person shouldn't end up leaving and hurting me, like has happened in the past.

I could say I got my eyes on someone, but I don't want to jinx anything.

But, guess I'm done again.

Posted by Me on 4/06/2002 11:54:00 PM | Comments?

(back dated, reposted from Deadjournal)

First Entry... sigh.

Well, I don't know if anyone will actual read this, though I don't think I care. Now I can feel special and say I have an online journal, woohoo!

Anyway, today was a long day. I'm sure people have had worse, and I have had too. But I've had my heart set on making a webpage at least somewhat decent. Only to have it become a complete pain in the ass. I had things going well with Angelfire, but then the damn thing starts screwing with the gif's I made on it. I might not have minded as much, if it screwed around with them right away, but it didn't. Waited a few hours after I had gone ahead and made more. Once I thought I had them sized to be fixed, it decided it wasn't.. blah. Not fair!

So of course, with all the stress from that, it's got other things triggering, so I feel just great! And while I'm sitting here feeling just great, a friend who I know online, seems to be needing some comfort, since she was feeling great too. It's fun. I'm sitting here, comforting someone, when comfort is the thing I want. But, there's no one to comfort me. But that's life, right?

Blah.. guess I'm done for now.

Posted by Me on 4/06/2002 11:24:00 PM | Comments?